Martha Arifin

Balmoral 1km Swim 2019

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Counting Down the Days

This Sunday, 7th April!

I'm feeling strong...

... yet I'm still very nervous ?

My VERY FIRST ocean swim race!

The swim will be at Balmoral Beach, one of Sydney's beautiful harbour beaches

If you're free on the day, come down, bring your family & friends, show support for me and others who will be swimming to raise money for cancer research

And if you're feeling generous, your donation would mean a lot to me:
>> https://www.cantoo.org.au/fundraisers/marthaarifin/balmoral-1km-swim-for-cancer-2019

Where Did I Do Wrong?

There were moment of doubts…

…where I didn’t trust in my own ability to swim it to the yellow triangle…
(which to me looks like floating in the middle of the ocean!)

Not to mention the murky water…

… adding to my biggest fear of sea creatures that shouldn’t be named ?

3 weeks into the ocean swim training,

I was struggling to swim straight…

… because there is no line in the sea to follow!

I veered here and there and almost caused ‘incidents’ with fellow swimmers by not knowingly switching to their “lane”
(I’m sure they were annoyed because of the look they gave me when we got back to the beach! Sorry peeps! ??)

I felt discouraged…

… and disappointed at myself

And being the perfectionist that I am…

… my mind kept racking on “what did I do wrong?”

Was it my kick?

Was it my catch?

How did I not realise I was veering that far?! I thought I was doing ok ??

And endless questions that I still don’t know the answer to

I kept playing these ‘mistakes’ in my brain…

… and I couldn’t get it out of my mind!

For days after the swim I was still thinking about it

I searched and watched swimming videos online…

... hoping to find my answers,

and to correct my mistakes…?(sounds perfectionist right about now heh?!)

But one thing came to my realisation while I was consuming these videos and practising…

... that I HAVE FORGOTTEN HOW IT IS TO BE A ROOKIE!

That it is okay to not know everything,??

to be okay in making mistakes,

to look stupid and be the ‘little fish’

to be constantly ‘corrected’ and 'critized'…

… and feeling my heart pumping really fast because I was so anxious and scared!

It’s all OK though

Every paddle, every breath, every swim is getting me closer to the yellow triangle…

… and back!

I couldn’t be more proud of myself!

I am doing this for a selfish reason

I want to do something I have never been able to do,

... to finally BE in the vastness of the sea…

… in the middle of the ocean without the fear of being taken away by some mystical sea creatures!
(I’m picturing loch ness monster right about now!!)

And there’s no better way than to put my intention out there for all of you to witness…

… and to sweat for a great cause at the same time!

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If this post resonates with you in any way, I would appreciate your support in donating to this great cause, just as these people have been supporting me and others in our journeys:??

>> https://www.cantoo.org.au/fundraisers/marthaarifin/balmoral-1km-swim-for-cancer-2019

Your donation is going to Can Too, an independent health promotion charity committed to funding cancer research

"At Can Too, we believe everyone can achieve goals they once thought impossible. We believe life is what you make of it, that anything is possible, and if you’re willing to take that first step, you CAN TOO!"

You can support by donating here. It would mean a lot to me?(100% of your fundraising money is spent on Can Too's charitable purposes):

>> https://www.cantoo.org.au/fundraisers/marthaarifin/balmoral-1km-swim-for-cancer-2019

I failed my bucket list!

 
There were times when I failed, when I didn't achieve what I set out myself to do...
 
... and it didn't feel good
 
Some of you might relate to this in one way or another
 
Here is my back story
 
Having never really swum in the ocean prior to this (more to the story later), the fear of the unknown, of dark deep waters, of marine animals (fancy those bluebottles?) has me crippled...
 
... but somehow the lure of the ocean, the feeling of sand between my toes, the gentle brush of salt water against my skin and the smell of the sea couldn't keep me off it...
 
... and I find myself going to the beach more frequently than planned
 
In the vastness of the ocean I experience freedom and oneness with nature in words that I can't justly describe
 
It's the euphoric feeling that you're part of the universe, and that the universe is in you...
 
... and everything in it and everything that you are
 
You might not know this, but I only just picked up swimming in the last 2 - 3 years. The last time I swam was during my high school days (year 1992 to be exact... that's like 25 years ago!)
 
It's in my 'before 40' bucket list and I didn't make it (I'm turning 44 this year)...
 
... to be in the ocean swim challenge
 
It's a frustration that I have been holding on from year to year that simply annoys the hell of me...
 
... because I didn't know how to work it...
 
... until recently
 
I have decided to make 2019 my year by signing up for my VERY FIRST OCEAN SWIM CHALLENGE! (Go me!)
 
For veterans out there it's a short 1km swim out... no big deal
 
For me... it's anxiety, nervousness, fear...
 
... and at the same time, 'blood-pumping-endorphin-rushing-im-not-sure-i-can-do-this' challenge...
 
... but I'm 100% committed to it!
 
I still doubt my confidence and fitness ability...
 
... but I AM trusting the process, the system, and the people who have done it multiple times before
 
Training for this event has not only prepared me to face my biggest fear (there are more to my story than just sharks and stingers!), it has challenged me to be vulnerable by putting myself out there...
 
... not knowing what the result is going to be...
 
(just please don't let me be rescued... that would be very embarassing! ?)
 
... and it has me realised that even at times when I doubt myself, I am fortunate enough to be surrounded with those who believe in me
 
 
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I am asking you to support me in this for a good cause, just as these people have been supporting me and others in our journeys:
 
Your donation is going to Can Too, an independent health promotion charity committed to funding cancer research
 
"At Can Too, we believe everyone can achieve goals they once thought impossible. We believe life is what you make of it, that anything is possible, and if you’re willing to take that first step, you CAN TOO!"
 
You can support by donating here. It would mean a lot to me
(100% of your fundraising money is spent on Can Too's charitable purposes)

I'm supporting cancer research and prevention with Can Too Foundation.

1 in 3 women and 1 in 2 men will be diagnosed with cancer in their lifetime. This means that potentially someone we love may have to battle cancer, and that’s a statistic that needs to change.

So I asked myself, “what can I do to help?” That’s where the Can Too Foundation came in! Can Too provide professionally coached training programs for participants – of any fitness level – to run, swim and cycle their way to a healthier lifestyle and a cancer-free world.

In return, I am raising valuable funds that go towards innovation in the prevention, care, and control of cancer. Since 2005, Can Too Foundation have trained over 15,000 participants, raised over $20,000,000 to invest in 158 one-year cancer research grants.

It would be fantastic if you could sponsor me, or even better join me in a program!

Thank you for your support!

Thank you to my Sponsors

$150

Martha Arifin

$104

Iczel Katz

You got this!

$104

Frances Lien

$88

Brother & Mom

You can do it!

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Your Lovely Sister ;d

Strength does not come from winning. The end result is not what's important. When you go through adversities and decide not to give up, that is strength. Cheering for you on this challenging journey you are about to take! With much love.

$52

Sandra

You go girl. SO inspirational.

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Rosie Lancaster

Wishing you all the best Martha! You go girl 👊🏽

$52

Theresia Widyaastuty

$52

Anonymous

$52

Drina Ng

$50

Josh Ubaldi

So proud of you! For me it was Scuba! Rock it!!

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Agnes

18 is symbolic number of giving "chai" (a Hebrew word) or life in Judaism. I am giving a 2 X 18 and may God bless you and your family vibrant health and abundant of happiness.

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Su

Go Martha!

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